I want to live

Or rather I don't want to die.

I just got this overwhelming feeling that I don't want to die.

That I want to go on and on and there is so much that I want to do.

So I want to live.

And make my wishes and wants come true.

It's still bubbling inside me now.

An overwhelming feeling of joy and fear and tears.

I just don't want to die.

I want to live and continue doing great things.

I feel like I haven't yet fulfilled my life's purpose and I fell that I am getting closer to finding what it is.

This quickening has a message for me.

In the meantime, I keep moving forward with my life, loving it and appreciating everything in it.

Hearing beautiful music that fair breaks me open and beams love out.

Seeing amazing performances that make me laugh and cry and want to break open even more.

Knowing that I hold secrets in my shoulders and that I'll know when I am touching myself deeply because the tension in my shoulders will be released along with the secrets.

Moments of deep deep calm. Moments of pure white light joy.

Satisfaction and smiles into my belly.

I want to live.

Long.